This just hasn't been a good week for me, and PMS royally threw it off, so I've been hormonal and weepy like a maniac. I'd go into details but it's one in the morning and I rarely update this journal and bitching about stuff is no good. Except, I CAN bitch about the fact that I'm a 'tard and I burned my face up when I blew out a candle at a bad angle, and somehow, all of the boiling hot wax and candle smoke went SPLAT in my face. Color me stupid.

Buut.. my time to leave to train with Shakespeare & Company is fast approaching, and I have to have two pieces prepared to perform before I get there. One has to be a sonnet (anything that inspires), and the other has to be anything that speaks to me, regardless of age, gender, or character type.


( My mistress' eyes are nothing like the sun (Sonnet 130) )

( O what a rogue and peasant slave am I! (Hamlet, with liberal cuts to keep it within the length limit) )

So, I haven't updated in ten weeks. I haven't read anything in ten weeks. I don't quite know why I have an LJ anymore if I'm not going to utilize it. Meh. But here, this is posted from my MySpace blog:

It's official.

Now, when I tell you that I am a Mad Scientist, I can say it in all seriousness. No joking here, folks. No shenanigans. My occupation is literally Mad Scientist. I work for Mad Science of Western New England, and I'm starting off teaching afterschool programs to K-6 kids about science----and as I work more often in the company, I will also be doing workshops, assemblies, shows, and birthday parties, showing off my Mad Scientist self and working as an instructor/performer. It's one-third teacher, one-third science geek, and one-third actor, based out of Northampton. So far, I'm teaching at St. Mary's in Longmeadow.. I'll have two or three other schools that I'll be teaching at, but I don't know which ones they are yet.

My Mad Science name is Professor Quark. I've got a labcoat and everything. Pictures are bound to come eventually. XD

I totally think I have the coolest job right about now. It's funny, because.. I never actually thought that I'd take a lot of jobs working with kids, but since coming back to Massachusetts, I've been a drama teacher for kids at WSYT and the YMCA, and now I teach kids about science... so wtf is up with that. I dunno, but it's pretty darn cool.


Not that I use MySpace more than LJ. I hate MySpace. I like Facebook. But I think notes are dumb and want a blog on Facebook instead.

I need to write in my LJ more often.

I need to READ LJ stuff more often. I'm just lazy. And why is it when I'm busiest I'm always looking to write fanfic again?

Well, the WSYT website is FINALLY functional. There are still a couple of pages that still need to be finished, but all of the CURRENT INFO FOR THE 2007 SEASON is up and running.

www.wsytontheweb.org


WSYTeers, staff, friends, and fans, if you'd like to post a link to the WSYT website with a snazzydoorific button on your LJ profile or MySpace, just copy and paste the following text:

<br><center><a href="http://www.wsytontheweb.org"><img src="http://www.wsytontheweb.org/Resources/index7.gif"></a></center><br>

And it will look like this!



Also, I've designed a fun, sporty new t-shirt for WSYT that's not season-specific. As of now it looks like it will NOT be available for this season because of cost concerns (and another snazzy new apparel surprise will be on its way), but I just wanted to put it out there to WSYTeers and friends that this new design's been done, and I'd like to garner as much support for it as possible! (Because people wanting the shirt is always a nice way to get it made... eventually.) You can view it here on my deviantART page.

So... that's all from your resident WSYT graphic designer. :D

Oh, lovely.

So... I finally made my Shakespeare & Company audition video today... and... it's so hard to watch myself on video that it's impossible for me to judge whether or not I'm any good. I hate the way I move my mouth, hate the way I look on camera (am I really that huge monstrosity that I see? good god, I've gotten big) and it's just.. it's so hard for me to be confident about my first audition since college----my first PROFESSIONAL audition----when I'm so disgusted by the way I look. Something has to change. Soon. It's just one more reason to pile onto the whole list of reasons that for some reason won't stick in my head.

Doing this before my Hampshire Shakespeare audition tonight was a bad idea, because now I don't want to go. While I think I do my monologue pretty well, I'm so uncomfortable about every aspect of how I look at it is just.. I physically hurt.

I think the only thing holding me back is my weight right now. Because that makes me not confident, makes me hold myself in such a way so as not to show off the unattractive parts, and... as an actor I can't be that way. So this has to stop. This has to stop and I alternately I need to also get over it and just say fuck it to how I look on camera.

I don't post often enough. But I had to post this.






Superdickery.com rules my life.

Can anyone help me?


For YEARS I have been trying to locate a book... I don't know the title or the author, unless I magically gain access to notebooks I possessed in sixth grade. It's a novel for probably... somewhere around ages 9-12, and it's about a girl who, through some perilous circumstances, has to disguise herself as a boy in a church choir. All I remember about the book is that there's a scene where she has to wash her hands in ice water, and I believe she's worried about being discovered when all the other boys begin to have changing voices.

I remember the title of other books that I loved when I was in middle school but for some reason this one just escapes me... and I know I have really vague stuff to go on, but it's been driving me crazy for years. It's gotten to the point where I think this book exists only in my head.

So, iMovie, do you want to explain why you hate me? Because you hate me.

I have made the most kickass fanvid in the world and you have to have problems exporting it, don't you. Big problems. So big that I can't just export you without audio and then put you back into a new file as one clip with audio. Oh, no, because you won't play the clips that I put in fast or slow motion, or the ones I edited for brightness and contrast, or the transitions and titles... all you do is play the clips that I haven't fucked with, you don't recognize my audio track, and no one is getting back to me on the Apple forums. I am really, really pissed right about now.


EDIT: So. I got it to work. Sort of. I had to take all of the transitions and speed effects out, and had to save it without audio and then reimport that and then add the audio back in, BUT. The point is. It's up, and I'm still happy with it, even with the sped-up and slowed-down parts taken out and played at normal speed in the same time frame. Enjoy it. Please.

It seems that all I do is post videos... but... um. You love it. So here's my video today, and this one's actually from my life!

Dad and Kellen, on mom's birthday.

Sandy Duncan made me gay.








... and for anyone who was in, or saw, The Taming of the Shrew this past weekend... does anyone spot a bit of Biondello? Because I do.